Man time is a flying. My last post was in March and back then I said, I was resetting my weight loss journey. I am now in May and well the reset button has not been pressed yet! What is wrong with me?
Today was a different day of sorts, I really had the desire to do better today. I got up this morning and frantically prepared myself for work. And it was frantic since I did not prepare anything the night before. I made my breakfast, a protein shake, my lunch, and ironed my clothes all before leaving the house this morning. And when I say made my lunch, I really mean made. I was cooking chicken at 4:30am! LOL! I must have been meant to be, I got it all accomplished in time and made it to work on time...actually 10 minutes to spare.
When I was at work, I was taking inventory..June is almost here. June...6 months into the year and little to no progress has been made on this weight loss Journey. If I remember correctly, I have 31 weeks until the end of the year? I will double check that fact, but...time is running out on me! I have got to kick it into high gear! I was moved today to apply to be a PrayFit Ambassador. I just felt like it would be a goal, something I should try. We shall see what happens, all they can say is no, but I tried.
Monday May 18th...Fuel and Fire
Pre-Breakfast: Protein Shake mixed with 6 ounces water, 2 ounces of milk, dash of magnesium, and a dash of Spirulina powder.
Breakfast: 4 Scrambled Eggs, Seattle Best Drip coffee, Banana
Lunch: 1 Chicken Breast, boiled Broccoli
Dinner: Lamb Burger, Cranberry Cooler, & Passion Fruit Cheesecake
Fire: Evening walk...51 minutes
My legs have been cramping up a lot lately. I read online that muscle cramps are a sign of magnesium deficiancy, Luckily for me, I have some powder magnesium tat my doctor gave me last year to help with constipation, so I am using it to see if it will help my muscle cramps. I'll let you know how that works out.
Today I felt really inspired, really motivated to move forward, so I hope this is the beginning of a new path.
Monday, May 18, 2015
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Reset...
Time for a do-over! Time to reset and restart.
When I first started this blog in June 2011 I weighed in at a whooping 371. I dieted, excercised for a couple of years, got under 300...and now...
I am knocking on the door of my 2011 weight! I am honestly but a mere 5 lbs away! March 1 - I got on the scale 366 lbs. A serious reality check! I never thought I would see myself back at my highest weight, but here I am. Back at square one! I can't believe it! I am so disappointed in myself.
So folks, I am back at it, this blog helped me back in 2011 and It will help me in 2015. Time to return to the basics, time to return to what helped and worked in the past. My goal for this year is to permanently release 100 lbs. That is 2 lbs a week for 52 weeks...well a little less than 52 weeks, since I missed out on Jan & Feb, but none the less, by Dec 31, 2015. I hope to be 266 lbs or less!
Let the countdown begin...100 lbs of fat on the wall. Let's sing a new song!
When I first started this blog in June 2011 I weighed in at a whooping 371. I dieted, excercised for a couple of years, got under 300...and now...
I am knocking on the door of my 2011 weight! I am honestly but a mere 5 lbs away! March 1 - I got on the scale 366 lbs. A serious reality check! I never thought I would see myself back at my highest weight, but here I am. Back at square one! I can't believe it! I am so disappointed in myself.
So folks, I am back at it, this blog helped me back in 2011 and It will help me in 2015. Time to return to the basics, time to return to what helped and worked in the past. My goal for this year is to permanently release 100 lbs. That is 2 lbs a week for 52 weeks...well a little less than 52 weeks, since I missed out on Jan & Feb, but none the less, by Dec 31, 2015. I hope to be 266 lbs or less!
Let the countdown begin...100 lbs of fat on the wall. Let's sing a new song!
Monday, January 26, 2015
This thing called Love...
Sigh!
I wrote on my vision board the word Love! That one little word...those 4 little letters are the HARDEST to understand.
2014 much to my surprise..my heart was pleasantly surprised. A guy who looked and gazed at me with what I called such admiration and love. It was a struggle for me to receive it. I ran and hid from it for song long. We talked about it, spent time together...I was scared to let my heart be completely open to it. I took baby steps into it, at times I stood still from the fear and at times, I did a full out retreat.
And here it is now 3 months have gone by, and the gaze of admiration, the gaze of love is gone. At first I was okay, well at least I told myself I was okay. I prayed, I said God you are in control. I have feelings for this one, I really felt I could be in love with this one, and I am trusting that things will work out in time. That's where I left things...Trust in God, though I missed seeing him, and talking to him. I am trusting that he will come back to me. No he is not with someone else, but is currently out the state, something he does, he has family there, and his kids are there. 3 months he has been gone..and what broke me of all things?
A picture, a simple picture of him with his song, hanging on the wall at his mom's house. I have been so messed up and jacked up since seeing it. LOVE...so heavy. The matters of my heart...so heavy.
I just truly hope Love find it's way back to me.
I wrote on my vision board the word Love! That one little word...those 4 little letters are the HARDEST to understand.
2014 much to my surprise..my heart was pleasantly surprised. A guy who looked and gazed at me with what I called such admiration and love. It was a struggle for me to receive it. I ran and hid from it for song long. We talked about it, spent time together...I was scared to let my heart be completely open to it. I took baby steps into it, at times I stood still from the fear and at times, I did a full out retreat.
And here it is now 3 months have gone by, and the gaze of admiration, the gaze of love is gone. At first I was okay, well at least I told myself I was okay. I prayed, I said God you are in control. I have feelings for this one, I really felt I could be in love with this one, and I am trusting that things will work out in time. That's where I left things...Trust in God, though I missed seeing him, and talking to him. I am trusting that he will come back to me. No he is not with someone else, but is currently out the state, something he does, he has family there, and his kids are there. 3 months he has been gone..and what broke me of all things?
A picture, a simple picture of him with his song, hanging on the wall at his mom's house. I have been so messed up and jacked up since seeing it. LOVE...so heavy. The matters of my heart...so heavy.
I just truly hope Love find it's way back to me.
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